Holy crap it's been nearly a year since I posted. Well...I'm still alive! Yay! In all seriousness though I've been battling a lot of things which makes for not a lot of creativity and fun times. Actually it makes for NO creativity and fun times. It happens and I'm not going to get into it. In other news I finally finished a painting idea I've had for probably about a year. Currently I work in retail and when you're surrounded by that much unnecessary garbage every day you start thinking about it. At least I do. Things such as where the hell do people put all these collectibles, how many sunglasses do you really need, how long has this stuff been sitting here and omfg I never want to see another fidget spinner in my life!!!! I started to imagine our planet collapsing under all this garbage filling up every nook and cranny until finally it started leaking into outer space to form a ring of junk around the Earth much like Saturn's rings. Combined with a strange obsession I have with tiny things and the thought of "what if I glued a bunch of miniature things onto a canvas" popped into my head and viola. Junk in Orbit was born. Other than the miniature stuff I used acrylic paint and fabric paint. The fabric paint having the amazing effect of glowing in the dark. I couldn't get it on picture as it just wouldn't show up but it is pretty spiffy.
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So I don't know about you but during the week there is so much to do that by the time you get home you end up just lying around to catch your breath. Things like cleaning and straightening take a back burner and pretty soon your house starts to look like the Tasmanian Devil blew through it. But! If you leave it too long things get....ugly. So every Friday I have a quick clean sweep. Not totally thorough but enough so that I'm not lost in mounds of mess. I thought it would be funny and a bit interesting to record this process and speed it up. So I guess if you like speed videos this one is for you! I sure wish I could actually clean that fast. I never want to clean but once I'm doing it, it's kind of therapeutic. So you would think that I wouldn't be so resistant to it. Though just watching this video I can clearly see the effort put into straightening. It makes me realize you should never underestimate the effort everyone puts in every day big or small. Life is hard and every little thing that you do to move forward counts. Don't let anyone tell you that your effort is too little or insignificant. My Grandma had this saying that I never really understood. She would say, "Whatever floats your boat!" and now that I'm older I get it. Whatever keeps you going in life you should keep doing it. Other people have other methods and you have yours. As long as it works for you and it isn't hurting anyone it doesn't matter what you are doing. At the end of the day if you made an effort that's all that matters.
Phew! This past month has been crazy! And for a good reason. This year marks some pretty big landmarks for me. For one thing I will be 30 years old this year, and consequently so will my BFF of 20 YEARS! We've of course had our ups and downs, but to know each other for that long and still do things together and regularly talk is amazing! We decided that to mark our milestones we wanted to do some crazy things this year. One idea was to go into the thrift store and get funky to none other than...you've probably guessed it....Macklemore and Ryan Lewis's Thrift Shop! I have a habit of just throwing ideas out there and not always following through, but Jackielantern was having none of that. I recently visited her in her hometown and was feeling total burnout. Lucky for me she was rearing to go! Here is the epic result: If you're lucky to have a BFF go do something wacky with them right now! I guarantee you'll have loads of fun. =)
I hope you all had a nice Valentine's Day. I enjoyed a nice warm, snuggly afternoon inside while watching the snow flurry outside. Too often I feel what's important about this holiday is lost. Like Christmas the focus is usually rather commercial. Because of this many people can feel lost and alone which is not what a holiday should be. It's not about if you have a significant other, rather I think it's about love in general. Love for your friends, your family, your pets, and yourself. So I like to spread little notes of love every year for this. Last year I crocheted heart shaped flowers, attached an encouragement, and then "planted" them along a nature path. This year I decided to create envelopes out of hearts to write the encouraging messages inside. In doing so I hope that I have brightened someone's day when they might otherwise be feeling the pressures of how Valentine's is advertised. If you'd like to follow along with the process and try it out yourself, here is the vlog for this year's Valentine's Day: You can also view the previous year's vlog here: When one year ends and another begins it's important to look back and see how far you've come. It's so easy to get lost in all of one's faults.
As such I've been going through all of my blog posts. Mostly because I decided to once again define new post categories to make them simpler and easier. I noticed a few things. One, I actually accomplished quite a lot. I tend to forget for some reason. (Which is exactly why I've created this site! Derp!) Two, I noticed a lot of gaps in my blogging. A sign that my anxiety is still plaguing me, and that's ok. We can't always expect ourselves to be perfect. It's unrealistic. What's not ok is that I am still letting it hold me back. Toward the end of last year I got really depressed as well. I hit a pretty bad low. I was feeling a lot of disappointment and not any motivation. I am still feeling it. Now, more than ever it's hard to go out and socialize, to work, to even put myself out there. I bring this up because I feel too often it's idealized to not feel this way. Or at least to hide it. Which is extremely unrealistic and then gives a feeling of failure. Especially for those that suffer with depression and/or anxiety. Even if you don't suffer from these things it gets tough to deal with everything. So I'm just putting it out there that I am with you! And here are some tips that I use to be able to function: 1. Start with the little things. Even getting up, getting dressed, showering and eating are accomplishments when you'd otherwise just be staying in bed. So don't forget to recognize your progress on the really bad days even if it is small. 2. Don't dwell. If you can fix something or a situation do it. If not, do as much as you can and then distract yourself with something else. Like crocheting. Or dancing. Or a puzzle. Or Pinterest. xD 3. Stay positive. Even if you have to be a bit sarcastic to do it. Can't find the silver lining in your situation? Make fun of it. Like comedians do. 4. Have a comfort item. For me it's being wrapped in something soft and warm. So when I'm out and can't be wrapped in a blanket burrito I wear some sort of crocheted item. For you it could be a small stuffed animal, a lucky keychain, gum, etc. 5. Take breaks. Don't wait until you're completely overwhelmed with something. If you're brain starts refusing to cooperate or your mood is rapidly plummeting, or you simply feel like you just might hyperventilate step away for a second. Go to the bathroom. Go outside if you can. Drink water, focus on your breathing and use that comfort item to relax you. Hope this helps! |
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